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Friday, Dec. 03, 2004 - 12:23 pm So guess what? I'm clinically depressed! Everybody say "yay" now...yay..I had long overdue appointment with University counsellor today about my stress and depression. I feel sorry for the woman, she seemed so shocked by everything I said. And I cried and cried and cried and ended up with a big wet ball of tissues by the end of it.. but I guess it was worth it.. she thinks I'll need years of therapy and also repeatedly suggested I may need depression relieving medication.God thats scary... I mean, I knew I wasn't ok.. but that just makes me seem so messed up.. like I'm a child with ADHD. And she kept bringing things back to my parents, and ok, so we don't hug in my family and they've never said "I love you" to me, my brother or each other.. but.. I never really thought it was so huge of a deal..However some stress has passed. I failed a course and had to see a guy about it, he's letting me do the exam over again which is really, really nice, he also took a sneak peak at my exam results for my other subjects and I passed them! So I feel better about that now.. Boyfriend and I are not so good.. we don't see each other often and this bothers me more than it bothers him. See he doesn't call me and I only see him about once or twice a week and it's just not good enough for me... and he still loves 3 other girls and I can't cope with that.. and in general we just don't talk about anything. But we talked last night and it made a lot of sense to break up.. but neither of us could do it.. so we're going to do a trial thing for now.. see each other every second day or so and he's promised to call often. But if this still doesn't work then I guess it'll be over.. I've spent a lot of time crying in the past 48hours.. I guess I'll let you know what happens from here on in.. |
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